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Walking away and accusations
Apr. 24th, 2006 01:42 amThere are times when walking away from the conversation is the right thing to do for me. It may or may not be the right thing to do for others, but I know it is for me.
When I try to walk away, to stop expressing my anger, and you respond by telling me that I must not care or I have given up on you or whatever else you may tell me, you are both ignoring what I am telling you and begging me to come back and yell at you.
When you accuse somebody else of doing something to get me to apologize, when you accuse them of telling on you, you are hurting them. That you can't see it does not make it not so.
When I tell you why I am walking away, accusing me of lying about why (regardless of whether you say I am lying, say I am tired of you, or make a sarcastic remark) will not hasten my return. It might not delay it, either, but it will darken my mood when I do.
I am not perfect. I do have a temper. As I cannot always control it, sometimes I just need to take it away. Please let me.
p.s. While this post is triggered by immediately recent events (yes, plural) and does apply to them, it is based as much on historical events over the past 3.5 years, at least.
p.p.s. If you want to be angry at me, go right ahead. But being angry at somebody else because of what I did, not what they did, is not fair or right.
When I try to walk away, to stop expressing my anger, and you respond by telling me that I must not care or I have given up on you or whatever else you may tell me, you are both ignoring what I am telling you and begging me to come back and yell at you.
When you accuse somebody else of doing something to get me to apologize, when you accuse them of telling on you, you are hurting them. That you can't see it does not make it not so.
When I tell you why I am walking away, accusing me of lying about why (regardless of whether you say I am lying, say I am tired of you, or make a sarcastic remark) will not hasten my return. It might not delay it, either, but it will darken my mood when I do.
I am not perfect. I do have a temper. As I cannot always control it, sometimes I just need to take it away. Please let me.
p.s. While this post is triggered by immediately recent events (yes, plural) and does apply to them, it is based as much on historical events over the past 3.5 years, at least.
p.p.s. If you want to be angry at me, go right ahead. But being angry at somebody else because of what I did, not what they did, is not fair or right.
