Owed thanks - part three
Nov. 27th, 2003 10:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
joshwritingFor SO long in my life, friends were a rare or non-existent part of my life.
David gets thanks, because without him, there would have been nobody. Yeah - towaard the last few years, I would have been happier/more comfortable if he had understood me better - but even the parts he COULD have understood I needed changed in our interactions I could not tell him - the parts he would not have gotten, I cannot imagine even TRYING to tell him.
Andy was okay. Not really there. I am not sure that I was really there either.
The members of the Alchemists Subterranean Society were my first clue that I was not alone.
And Betsy changed my life. W/o Betsy, I do not know if I would have been ready for ESP and the MIT folks... My first friend - let alone my first girlfriend.
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The change from pre-college to college age was stark. Not that I found so many friends AT college - but it led me to where I did.
Many.
The notion of friend, which had been so alien to me, grew quickly to a place of need, not convenience, once I understood the concept! The friends I made through ESP... through Science Fiction... through Chess... these are folks who made a difference - even if they passed on through.
Some of them, I still account as friends - though we do not speak often. They are people with whom I would enjoy reconnecting, even as I fail to do it. So, knowing that I skip some, I list them anyway - for a period and of a sort...
Misty, Audrey, CJ, Becca, Mike D, Tim (who died too young) and Gil and the rest of the Amber Society, Elaine (Rueben T, Shava), Pat, Colleen, Mimi, Renee, Lorelei, Beth, and and and...
Many, many - who made my life happier, made it fuller - and to whom I would be hard pressed NOT to offer thanks, for their friendships... and maybe I will give some of them a call or drop them an email...
But today?
David gets thanks, because without him, there would have been nobody. Yeah - towaard the last few years, I would have been happier/more comfortable if he had understood me better - but even the parts he COULD have understood I needed changed in our interactions I could not tell him - the parts he would not have gotten, I cannot imagine even TRYING to tell him.
Andy was okay. Not really there. I am not sure that I was really there either.
The members of the Alchemists Subterranean Society were my first clue that I was not alone.
And Betsy changed my life. W/o Betsy, I do not know if I would have been ready for ESP and the MIT folks... My first friend - let alone my first girlfriend.
*********
The change from pre-college to college age was stark. Not that I found so many friends AT college - but it led me to where I did.
Many.
The notion of friend, which had been so alien to me, grew quickly to a place of need, not convenience, once I understood the concept! The friends I made through ESP... through Science Fiction... through Chess... these are folks who made a difference - even if they passed on through.
Some of them, I still account as friends - though we do not speak often. They are people with whom I would enjoy reconnecting, even as I fail to do it. So, knowing that I skip some, I list them anyway - for a period and of a sort...
Misty, Audrey, CJ, Becca, Mike D, Tim (who died too young) and Gil and the rest of the Amber Society, Elaine (Rueben T, Shava), Pat, Colleen, Mimi, Renee, Lorelei, Beth, and and and...
Many, many - who made my life happier, made it fuller - and to whom I would be hard pressed NOT to offer thanks, for their friendships... and maybe I will give some of them a call or drop them an email...
But today?
